Just another day

Six days from now, this blog will be a year older. I’m neither happy nor sad about it. I just can’t understand what I’m feeling right now. Perhaps stress. Maybe it’s boredom. It could be a little frustration. It could be a sudden flooding of unsaid things.

Perhaps I should take a leave of absence. Take a week off, then a vacation. Or possibly work abroad for 6 months or a year. Cebu is such a comfort zone for me, and I may need a little twisting right now. But I can’t fly alone this time. I promised my wife that we’d be together for better or for worse.

In a few days, or maybe a few weeks, some dreams got to be realized. Or it will add to the disenchantment. I can’t just close my eyes and sleep. I can’t just play badminton and smash my stress away. I have to do something.

I can’t allow an inner void, wherein an introspection takes too much of my time. There are many reasons to be happy. There are many reasons not to be bored. There are many good and noble things to fill my mind. There is a career to take care of. There is someone to love. There is a future to look forward to. There is a badminton tournament coming. There are young people to guide. There is a pastor’s sermon to listen to. There is a job to be done. There are friends to hang out with. There are real friends to treasure. There is a family to help. There is this blog to fill twice or thrice a week.

I thank God for the everyday strength, wisdom and provision. If not for him, I don’t know where I could be right now.