Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Just another day

Six days from now, this blog will be a year older. I’m neither happy nor sad about it. I just can’t understand what I’m feeling right now. Perhaps stress. Maybe it’s boredom. It could be a little frustration. It could be a sudden flooding of unsaid things.

Perhaps I should take a leave of absence. Take a week off, then a vacation. Or possibly work abroad for 6 months or a year. Cebu is such a comfort zone for me, and I may need a little twisting right now. But I can’t fly alone this time. I promised my wife that we’d be together for better or for worse.

In a few days, or maybe a few weeks, some dreams got to be realized. Or it will add to the disenchantment. I can’t just close my eyes and sleep. I can’t just play badminton and smash my stress away. I have to do something.

I can’t allow an inner void, wherein an introspection takes too much of my time. There are many reasons to be happy. There are many reasons not to be bored. There are many good and noble things to fill my mind. There is a career to take care of. There is someone to love. There is a future to look forward to. There is a badminton tournament coming. There are young people to guide. There is a pastor’s sermon to listen to. There is a job to be done. There are friends to hang out with. There are real friends to treasure. There is a family to help. There is this blog to fill twice or thrice a week.

I thank God for the everyday strength, wisdom and provision. If not for him, I don’t know where I could be right now.

6 comments:

ghee said...

Advanced happy 1st yr anniv of blogging,Lazarus!I think u shud be proud of it and be more inspired! ;)

more power!and yeah,take ur wife with u if u travel :)

M I C H E L L E said...

Happy 1st year anniversary of blogging lazarus! You're right there are many reason to be happy and thank for...

So no need to be frustrated nor bored :) God bless!

snglguy said...

An advanced happy first blogsary, Lazarus. :-)

Lazarus said...

i think i've mentioned enough of this site's coming blogsary. but i might forget to post on the day itself. haay! forgetful me. but thanks for the greetings my friends.

sexy mom said...

happy 1st blogsary.

i was wondering if you're having signs of midlife crisis, but then you are only 31! you'll be fine soon, you will bounce back!

lazarus said...

midlife crisis? ha ha ha. i'm fine now. I'm not in denial either.