Friday, June 15, 2007

Restrain

“Sometimes, I wish I’m irrational. Flaring up before anyone can react. Then blame it on some mood changes and bad temper. Patience can sometimes put one on a disadvantage. And there are moments when I like to lose my patience. Damn the consequences. Sensitivity can be the least of my concerns. One blow will settle everything. But how can I be that cruel? Maybe it’s because of some heartless soul pushing me to the limits.”

The above was what I felt a few days ago. I typed it and saved it in my cellphone, hoping to blog about it. I don’t like to post my rants. But somehow, I can reflect on them. What if I lost my patience after I was provoked? Can I walk away with a clean conscience afterwards?

I just thanked God for the power to restrain myself at that very intense situation. Otherwise, who knows what could happen next.

7 comments:

snglguy said...

Hmm, try going to a gym and look for a punching bag... and sweat out those frustration. Believe me, it works! :-)

Lazarus said...

ha ha ha. Then imagine his face on every punch. But I sometimes, walk away for a few minutes, redivert my thoughts, then go back.

Ferdz said...

It's okay to rant sometimes or just play out the scenario in my head. Then the consequences of putting them in actual action will be realized.

Sometimes I just have a few good runs and clear my head a lot.

Annamanila said...

did u get your Qs?

lazarus said...

ferdz, sapagkay tayo'y tao lamang. I generally clear-headed.

annamanila, i got your questions. thanks! I've been thinking of the answers since i first saw the Qs? Tough!

jho said...

Patience is a Virtue.

Mommy Chi said...

ahh.. i know what you mean about losing one's patience. i'm married to a man who sometimes think he's still a teenager and i have a daughter who seems to want attention all the time. when all three of us are under the same roof (which is a few weeks/months a year), i get totally insane to the point where in i end up ranting like a madwoman while the two of them just stares at me. what i do? i lock myself in the bathroom with my cup of coffee and just wait until i'm done with my temper flare. once i come out of my 'haven', i'm all sweet and rational again, being the good mother/wife that i should be.